It was a rough weekend...

So, I had great plans for this weekend. They involved a former teachers baby shower and a co-workers baby show. The former teachers shower was fun, though I didn't really know anybody. I didn't win any games, but I did get to show off Zack, which was fun. I forgot my party favor as I went out the door--bummer!!

But the real bummer was sunday. I really love the co-worker that the baby shower was for. She is beautiful, sweet-spirited, a lot of fun and just the most adorable pregnant woman you've ever seen (and I've seen a lot--I work with them!!). Well, I was doing really well, until she opened a scrapbook that a ton of people put time and effort into personalizing for her so she only had to stick the pictures in it. What a clever idea, huh? It was also really special that 5 people went in to putting together the shower and it went really smoothly. So, I'm sure you're thinking, yeah, what's the problem? Well, the problem is I got really hurt feelings. I mean, I just had Zack 2 1/2 months ago. I've worked with these people full-time for a year and part time as an extern since summer, 2003. Here it goes...Nobody gave me a shower. Like 5 people from work came up to the awesome shower I did have given by my Family. I mean, I got a few presents here and there from co-workers...but I didn't get a shower from them, or a homemade scrapbook, or a cake and games. Am I just having a pity-party-feel-sorry-for-Alisha moment? Or are my hurt feelings valid? So, the worst part is, I kinda lost it when I saw the scrapbook thing, since apprently this is a tradition (at least on night shift!). I felt the tears a comin', so I stuffed them. Then, my eyes started welling up, so I got up to the bathroom and tried some deep breathing. It worked for a minute. Before you knew it, I was back around everyone trying to stuff my feelings, until someone said "are you ok?" I lost it. I really didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to ruin my co-workers shower. After all, it was her day. Her day to be in the spotlight and surrounded by love. I didn't want to ruin that and I hope I didn't.

So...I ended up leaving. It was over anyway, but I didn't get a picture with her or to tell her she was gorgeous or say goodbye to the coworker moving out of state...In the end, not only am I bummed about the stuff I just listed, but I robbed myself of a good time and a good bye. Hopefully my coworkers don't think I'm an emotional space-case. Does motherhood do this to ya? Am I just really hormonal? Am I destined to be, what feels like, a blithering emotional, sensitive woman who's now sentenced to wearing her heart on her sleeve? Help me out here. Show a little honesty, but don't hurt my feelings. I've been known to cry.

My First Blog- Time Flies

Today is my first blog, so forgive me if this is lame. So, I decided I better have my photos from vacations and major life events printed from Cd's that I have because I am being overwhelmed with a huge number of baby photos. I figured if I didn't develop them now, they'd never get developed...so, over 600 prints later and $150 poorer, I have a pile of pictures to scrapbook. So, throughout organizing and reviewing, I couldn't help but reminisce. Now, I'm a little depressed. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. I'm past Jr. High camp and High School dances and games. I've gone to college and graduated. I've purchased a house, settled in a career and already have a son that is 10 weeks old. Hello!! Where has the time flown by? I can't believe the my life is flying by so quickly and I don't know where it went!! Wow. :( Anyway. I better go to sleep. They say to sleep when the baby sleeps, but I'm not very good at that yet. I better tonight, since tomorrow is an early morning.